The Square Pegs

A snippet from a conversation

 Bemused:  well okay. Do you feel pigeon holed by friends sometimes?

 Bewildered:  in what sense?

Elaborate

 Bemused:  sometimes, when I’m around certain people, I feel like I’m being compartmentalized, and I find myself believing that I’m just their perception of me,  although I know that's not true.

i mean. Is that normal

 Bewildered:  you feel like your dimensions are reduced to maybe two sides

 Bemused:  yes

 Bewildered:  sometimes even one

yep

 Bemused:  yeah, even though I am aware that I’m more, I feel restricted to fewer

argh

 Bewildered:  that's 90% of your acquaintances

 Bemused:  so infuriating

Yeah, but I get that happening with acquaintances. I dunno if it's supposed to happen with friends

 Bewildered:  like fitting a square peg in a round hole

it will

 Bemused:  exactly!

 Bewildered:  of course you will

Did you honestly expect that every friend of yours will see you 100% as who you are?

honey you're dreaming up utopia again

 Bemused:  no, they needn't see me as exactly who I am. Even I can't do that yet.

 Bewildered:  every human being comes with a very long and detailed thesis

 Bemused:  it's like this. With some people, although i know they only get about 5% of me, I still don't feel pigeonholed

 Bewildered:  about who what and why they are, doesn't mean everyone's interested in reading it

 Bemused:  yeah that's true

 Bewildered:  face it, our theses appeal to a very small portion of our friends

and that's how you know who's a keeper I guess

people who don't just care for you but are interested in you

the you- ness of you

 Bemused:  yeah, you're right

gah

pretty heart for you

 Bewildered:  that's an ugly fucking heart

I’m returning it